I鈥檓 not kissing girls who have to get / blitzed / to touch me
by Jennifer Hanks
I鈥檓 not I鈥檓 not I鈥檓 not / It鈥檚 not true she wants / something different from me / than her
boyfriend / Or it is / and that鈥檚 hell too / she gets on her knees / on the dance
floor / she
presses her face against my hip / I鈥檓 supposed to pretend my body feels nothing /
I know
that / next time I鈥檒l say / my confusing body feels nothing / my traitor body feels nothing /
put your hand in my jeans and see how much nothing I feel
I will / I鈥檒l say it / not / I鈥檓 wet & hard & still not real / enough / for you I
won鈥檛 say / I鈥檓 a
good boy / enough-boy / a spit-curl-you-could-pull-when-I鈥檓-sucking-your-clit boy
/ I鈥檓
dry I鈥檒l say / I鈥檓 chalk I鈥檒l say / pull off a limb and it鈥檒l grow back I鈥檒l say /
but nothing / she
tips back her head / the whiskey on her breath / the ginger on her breath / like a
sea star /
I鈥檓 brainless / I won鈥檛 I won鈥檛 I won鈥檛 / move closer / her palm against my chest
now / my
sweating crushed ant chest now / just take another shot I鈥檒l say / just leaving me
standing
here I鈥檒l say / just go home with that girl / that boy I try / to say / before her
drunk / her
confident cis tongue / is in my mouth